So I haven't done anything to this webpage for awhile (and I suspect no one has seen it/will see it until my next piece)... so I'm going to use it to vent.

I'm not in the best of moods just now. To whoever does read this - its going to be really self-indulgent/self-pitying, so don't say I didn't warn you. For those of you who do know me, I'd much prefer you didn't read this.
Basically I've been wanting something that I found out I didn't get. This hasn't happened to me in awhile but then again, the opposite happens less frequently. On top of this, I can't put on a front and act like everything is normal - I've been doing that for years and quite frankly, I'm frustrated and bored of it.
I'm just too tired of all the shit that's happening right now. School is being a bitch, I'm stressed out right now and I'm sick to death of constantly being worried/upset/frustrated/negative - if you knew me you'd probably think otherwise.

I'm also not finding enough time to do the things that I love anymore. Well, it's either time, or motivation...or both. So many people say "Yeah, well just be more proactive and motivate yourself" - I'm finding it particularly hard to be inspired. I wonder if more people feel this way. I also always wonder whether I'm going to be able to do art for the rest of my life. I mean, I can't seem to do it in university as an extra curricular - does that mean I'm not cut out for it as a profession? Do you constantly have to be creating or is it just a few quality creations that count?

Feel free to comment I guess, I could use some sound advice. In fact I could use my holiday right about now.

I'm sorry if this seems to be a "woe-is-me" post [because it is]... its just been a difficult week.

- Scuba